January 2017 Book of the Month | In a Nutshell: Coping with bipolar disorder | Finding the courage to shed secrets | Intense, insightful exploration of how it feels to live with bipolar disorder, and finding the strength to reveal who we really are.
Sixteen-year-old Mel Hannigan’s life is a precarious balancing act. She’s on a strictly managed cocktail of meds to control her dysphoric mania, a form of bipolar disorder which makes sufferers feel simultaneously manic and depressed. Mel is also mourning the death of her brother, who suffered from the same condition and believed that “everyone has a super power.” Mel identifies hers as “the ability to not think about anything I don't want to think about", which she lives out by keeping her condition secret from everyone but her family. But, while this secrecy is how Mel seeks to maintain equilibrium, along with working in an old people’s home, it’s also what causes a huge falling out with her friends. She’s locked into this cycle of secrecy until her new doctor remarks that in order to enjoy the intimacy she craves, she needs to give people the “chance to know and love the real you”.
Along her turbulent journey, Mel’s vital relationships with the people she meets in the home are stirringly portrayed, especially David, the grandson of a resident, to whom she opens up. Heart-rending, empathy-inducing and uplifting, reading this novel is an immersive, all-consuming experience that really does resonate long after the final page. ~ Joanne Owen
How can you have a future if you can't accept your past? Mel Hannigan doesn't have it easy. Mourning the death of her firework of a brother, trying to fit back into a school she's been conspicuously absent from and struggling to deal with the loss of three friendships that used to mean everything.
Struggling to deal with a condition that not even her closest friends know about.
So Mel tries to lock away her heart, to numb the highs and lows, to live quietly without hope - but also without pain. Until someone new shows her that it can be worth taking a risk, that opening up to life is what can make it glorious.
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'Enjoyable, clever and honest. Definitely a must for fans of The Perks of Being a Wallflower' Kimi Wright, Waterstones
'A heartfelt story, abut the realities of teenage life along with living with bipolar [disorder]' Verity, 15, Lovereading4kids
'An intimate and affecting portrait of mental illness helmed by an achingly real protagonist' Kirkus
Praise for Not If I See You First:
'Gorgeous, romantic, heart-rending' Maximum Pop!
'Not If I See You First is thoughtful and honest, with characters that made me laugh, cry, and surprised me at every turn. It's a book I'll recommend for years to come.' Kody Keplinger, author of The Duff and co-founder of Disability in KidLit
Publication date: 04/05/2017
Publisher: HarperCollins Children's Books an imprint of HarperCollins Publishers
|Publication date:||29th December 2016|
|Publisher:||HarperCollins Children's Books an imprint of HarperCollins Publishers|
|Suitable for:||13+ readers, YA readers|
|Genres:||General Fiction, Personal Social Health Economic , Personal Social Health Economic|
|Recommendations:||Books of the Month, eBooks|
|Other Categories:||Reviewed by Children|
Novelist Eric Lindstrom is a veteran of the interactive entertainment industry. His writing has been nominated for a BAFTA award for Best Videogame Screenplay in Tomb Raider: Underworld. Not if I See You First was his debut novel, and A Tragic Kind of Wonderful his highly anticipated second novel.More About Eric Lindstrom
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